08/19/2022 About a year ago, I woke up one morning and went out to find garage or estate sales. I came across a house in Alamo Heights where an older woman was selling lots of items for dirt cheap. She had a box full of CDs that were only a dollar. Taking advantage of the situation, I bought Neil Young, Bringing it All Back Home, and Blood on the Tracks. When she saw what I had picked she sighed and told me “When [Blood on the Tracks] came out it was just incredible. I bought the record and would play it all the way through, and then I would turn it over and start it again.” I didn’t really understand why anyone would feel compelled to do that. I liked the album at that time but wasn’t fully in love with it like I am now and figured that anyone would get tired of hearing an album over and over again. Regardless, I took the CD home with me. I was lucky enough to still have a CD player in my car at that time, so I would listen to it when I would drive around San Antonio. I slowly began to fall in love with each song, and to this day I grow to love this album more and more with each listen. Falling in love, experiencing heartbreak, longing for something or someone long gone, and feeling emptiness that only some of the darkest times in one’s life can bring out are the languages of this album. There have been times when listening to this album sets me right back in those head spaces, and I can only imagine what Dylan was going through during the production and recording of this album. Divorce from his wife, loss, heartbreak. There’s some sort of timeless quality about this album. Something that sounds and feels like it was made centuries ago, but with the same freshness and raw vulnerability that still holds strong and fits right in the time that one listens to it now. Dylan truly bared his soul for this album, regardless of his petty insistence that these songs have no relation to what was happening in his life at this time. When I saw this album was the one assigned to me today, I was so happy and also thought it was the funniest thing, because just like how that old woman told me how she would play this album over and over, I had come to do the exact same thing. Just yesterday I was playing this album over on Spotify only to skip to playing the record and sitting next to the player as each track rang out. — No skips on this album for me. Although I think every track is wonderful in its own way, I’m extremely biased toward You’re A Big Girl Now, You’re Gonna Make Me Lonesome When You Go, Shelter from the Storm, and Buckets of Rain. — Otherwise, today has been very calm. Did lots of housekeeping today. Laundry, cleaning, unpacking, all that. School starts in just three days. I’m so nervous, but so excited as well. Listening to albums like these give me the strength to keep pushing. The only thing I knew how to do Was to keep on keeping on like a bird that flew Tangled up in blue

08/27/2022 This album is very special to me for a number of reasons. Take Five was the first jazz recording that I ever heard back in third grade when my elementary school did a program called music memory. We were played sound bytes of different famous recordings and this was one of them. I have loved this recording since 2007-2008. Nearly 15 years of love. Fast forward to the future, I fell in love with the entire album after working at my university’s radio station that played jazz in the afternoons. I was the DJ for the 3-5 hour on Mondays or Wednesdays. Became familiar w many more songs and the style of Dave brubeck’s players because of this. — Today was super chill, I finally got to run some errands. Ran to target, had a great time getting lunch stuff and other little fun items. Came back and made myself a nice lil dinner and then just watched Netflix and crocheted.

09/15/2022 I’ll probably say this hundreds of times throughout this project, but I am not an 80s girl, and late 80s/early 90s dance hall/house music is one of the genres that I hate the MOST, so this album was really tough to get through. So much so that I didn’t even do it. No disrespect or anything, but this album is not for me whatsoever. — Today sucked fat ass, I cried on the phone to Luke about how I hate school and I want to quit 🤣🤣🤣 I’m trying to force myself to stick with it and not give up so easily, but holy fuck is it easy to get discouraged. I fucking hate computers, ever since I was a child I’ve longed for a time other than this one, yet I have to be stuck in this hellhole of a world that just keeps driving itself further and further toward a bottomless pit of despair. I find it really hard to find a will to live sometimes.

08/17/2022 :’) can’t believe this was my first one to start this all off. This album and Nevermind are the pinnacle of my early high school years. Truly feels like a throwback listening to this album again. I guess I’ll use this to also document what’s going on in my day as I do this. Use it like a lil Time Capsule. Laptop shopping before I start architecture school in 5 days. We’ll see how it goes by the end of this project, aptly titled “Until Graduation.”

08/18/2022 I have been wanting to listen to this album since high school, but I never have until this app gave me an excuse to. Overall, the album is honestly super generic, there is nothing special about it to me. Not horrible, but definitely not great. Sweet Emotion really carries this whole album on its back bc without it, the whole album would probably suck. In other news, today was good. I met my student mentor today named Paul. We talked for a few hours and had a great conversation with lots of good insight and information about what to expect during this journey. After that I walked home and waited a few hours until heading back to campus for advising. I've got my schedule mostly figured out, now I just have to wait to start classes in 4 days :O

08/19/2022 About a year ago, I woke up one morning and went out to find garage or estate sales. I came across a house in Alamo Heights where an older woman was selling lots of items for dirt cheap. She had a box full of CDs that were only a dollar. Taking advantage of the situation, I bought Neil Young, Bringing it All Back Home, and Blood on the Tracks. When she saw what I had picked she sighed and told me “When [Blood on the Tracks] came out it was just incredible. I bought the record and would play it all the way through, and then I would turn it over and start it again.” I didn’t really understand why anyone would feel compelled to do that. I liked the album at that time but wasn’t fully in love with it like I am now and figured that anyone would get tired of hearing an album over and over again. Regardless, I took the CD home with me. I was lucky enough to still have a CD player in my car at that time, so I would listen to it when I would drive around San Antonio. I slowly began to fall in love with each song, and to this day I grow to love this album more and more with each listen. Falling in love, experiencing heartbreak, longing for something or someone long gone, and feeling emptiness that only some of the darkest times in one’s life can bring out are the languages of this album. There have been times when listening to this album sets me right back in those head spaces, and I can only imagine what Dylan was going through during the production and recording of this album. Divorce from his wife, loss, heartbreak. There’s some sort of timeless quality about this album. Something that sounds and feels like it was made centuries ago, but with the same freshness and raw vulnerability that still holds strong and fits right in the time that one listens to it now. Dylan truly bared his soul for this album, regardless of his petty insistence that these songs have no relation to what was happening in his life at this time. When I saw this album was the one assigned to me today, I was so happy and also thought it was the funniest thing, because just like how that old woman told me how she would play this album over and over, I had come to do the exact same thing. Just yesterday I was playing this album over on Spotify only to skip to playing the record and sitting next to the player as each track rang out. — No skips on this album for me. Although I think every track is wonderful in its own way, I’m extremely biased toward You’re A Big Girl Now, You’re Gonna Make Me Lonesome When You Go, Shelter from the Storm, and Buckets of Rain. — Otherwise, today has been very calm. Did lots of housekeeping today. Laundry, cleaning, unpacking, all that. School starts in just three days. I’m so nervous, but so excited as well. Listening to albums like these give me the strength to keep pushing. The only thing I knew how to do Was to keep on keeping on like a bird that flew Tangled up in blue

08/21/2022 The great thing about outkast is that they transcend genre. Big Boi shines on his first half of the album, Andre’s second half frankly falls a bit flat. I personally thought a lot of the songs were pretty dumb, although there are a few favorite gems hidden in there. This album tends to drag a bit after a while, and isn’t fully cohesive. Nevertheless, still better than basically anything released today. — Although this was assigned to me yesterday, I’m writing this review on the 22nd. Today I start classes. Yesterday was rough, but today we will overcome and rise above. Anxious to see how each day progresses….

08/22/2022 Okay, I really loved this album. There were multiple times that I had to remind myself that it’s a LIVE recording. Fela Kuti is a legend and ginger baker really fucking shines on these recordings. This album is like that meme from a few years ago: “when you’re riding different waves but still building.” I want to listen to more of his albums now. — I started grad school today!!! Can’t believe I can’t officially say that I’m a graduate student, an architecture student!!! Today was so so long, I’m nervous about time management and how I’ll navigate classes, meals, my dog, and my own health. I’m trying to keep the faith, and also get some good sleep in too. Tiffany brought us these amazing pineapple cakes from Taiwan that were unlike anything I had had before. I need to buy a whole box. Until tomorrow….

08/23/2022 Okay, so I started playing this after I rated the previous album that I was given and holy fuck. I hope I can get another album assigned after this so I don’t have to wait a whole day for it to clear. Being real, I couldn’t even get through three songs on this album. It was straight up unbearable for me, like holy fuck it sucks so bad. The songs all drag and are two minutes longer than any of them need to be. Music is garbage and unfulfilling, lyrics are so basic. How are they the 12th most streamed band in the world??!! — Today was my second day of classes. It was definitely more chill than yesterday, and I finished my two models early so I got to go home at around 3ish. There was a really confusing mix up with UPS that had me panicking for about damn near two hours. The laptop that I had ordered arrived broken, so I ordered a new one, but the new laptop hasn’t come in, and I mistook a slip that UPS gave me for my old laptop that needs to be picked up as a message that they were going to return my laptop back to the distributor. ANYWAY, let’s all collectively pray that I get my laptop tomorrow and that the separate return goes smoothly

08/24/2022 This album was sooo fun and truly exceeded my expectations. It’s wild that this album is almost 20 years old, but some of the songs sound insanely modern (looking at you sunworshipper). Also I could immediately envision the gays throwing it back at Heat nightclub for a song like Drop the Pressure. I listened to this album while I was working in studio today and couldn’t stop bopping my lil head!!! It does get a bit repetitive and lackluster toward the end, but I will definitely be listening to this album again. — Today was great! We presented our models assigned earlier this week and one of my classmates said that mine were the most well crafted in front of the entire class, I was SHOOK. But yeah, I whipped out some drawings really fast and then attended the school’s back to school party and talked to lots of thesis students who were all very nice. I went to my landscape architecture class and DIED bc it was outside and it was humid and hot ASFFFFF, however we got to go into this mini museum installation on campus about things that thrive through human contact but have grown out of human control. 9am class tomorrow morning, still need to read. Good night <3

08/25/2022 Nothing inherently wrong with this album, but it’s just not my style. I’m a southern rap girl through and through (notorious big being the only exception). Despite this, it’s easy to see the influence that this album had on shaping an entire sub genre of rap music and being a keystone in hip hop culture of the late 80s/early 90s. I’m sorry, but I’ll always hate Can I Kick It lmfaooooo — Today was…..rough. I’m so very tired and feeling extremely lonely and…lacking in support. I don’t feel like I have many people, if any, to talk to. I feel super alone in this journey right now. There’s been this intrusive thought in my mind that keeps telling me that everyone in that building doesn’t give af about any of the individual students, but instead sees us all as little walking money bags that they can post on their Instagram for clout. Ugh…I’m so conflicted. I have enjoyed my time at the school and have already learned a lot, but I come home every night and feel anxious as HELL. Been having trouble falling asleep. I think the whole falling out/weird end that I had w Dr. O’Rourke just completely shifted my perspective or student-professor relationships and what an individual student actually means to a department, or even larger, a university. Part of me wishes I could turn it all off and not care and just focus on my needs and what needs to get done, but sometimes I can’t help but think too much. I really hope the days get better

08/31/2022 Retrospective listen, missed this one when it was first assigned to me. It was actually a lot better than I was expecting it to be. Pretty experimental for its time. Also you can't tell me that Rage Against Their Machine didn't get their musical style directly from these guys. Not sure if I would listen to the whole album again, but nevertheless I enjoyed listening to it.

08/27/2022 This album is very special to me for a number of reasons. Take Five was the first jazz recording that I ever heard back in third grade when my elementary school did a program called music memory. We were played sound bytes of different famous recordings and this was one of them. I have loved this recording since 2007-2008. Nearly 15 years of love. Fast forward to the future, I fell in love with the entire album after working at my university’s radio station that played jazz in the afternoons. I was the DJ for the 3-5 hour on Mondays or Wednesdays. Became familiar w many more songs and the style of Dave brubeck’s players because of this. — Today was super chill, I finally got to run some errands. Ran to target, had a great time getting lunch stuff and other little fun items. Came back and made myself a nice lil dinner and then just watched Netflix and crocheted.

08/29/2022 Love that I’ve been getting jazz albums for the past two days!!! Had heard of Keith Jarrett, but never had a solid grasp of his work. This album was really beautiful, especially since I love jazz pianists. I can’t imagine how transcendent this performance must have been for the audience watching live. — Today was another chill day. I made chicken salad, watched bcs w fi, did some reading for school, and got to talk to Lukey on FT :)). School tomorrow, also excited to continue watching bcs w fi <3

08/29/2022 Honestly…..this sounds like music made for teenagers. Like teenagers probably eat this shit up thinking that they’re alt as fuck for listening to this music. Fuck it, good for them, I guess. Really couldn’t get into this album. I’ve got an attachment to tomorrow comes today bc I have a memory attached to it, but frankly the rest of the album annoyed me. Oh well. — Today was a typical Monday. Had some really frustrating computer issues that will hopefully get fixed tomorrow. Landscape architecture class was a bit of a fight to get through bc my professor is a bit of a pain, but at least the class is easy. Oh well. No class in the AM, so I’ll have some extra time to maybe squeeze in a workout finally. <3

08/30/2022 It’s New Order. Immediately four stars. — Casual day, nothing big happened. Just waiting for the weekend…

08/31/2022 Karen Carpenter, I will always love you. Been finding a lotttt of comfort in soft 70s music lately, this album was so amazing. I really love the carpenters a lot and it’s a shame that they don’t always get taken seriously just bc they’re aren’t perceived as “hard” by society. I hope I still have the record of this laying around somewhere??? Crescent noon was amazing. — Damn, today SUCKED. I felt off from the second I walked into studio. Today was just one of those days where shit just piles on and continually gets worse. We worked w Rhino today and since my understanding is so very basic, I was having a really hard time moving as quickly and efficiently as my other classmates. I’m struggling a lot. I feel like I don’t have anything special or useful to bring to the table like literally any of my other classmates do. Feeling super incompetent tonight…. Got drunk to try and numb some of the bad feelings, but it kinda just led me to wallow even more. Idk if how I feel on a day to day basis is normal, because by the end of every day I feel super panicky and nervous. Doubtful that I’m even making the right decisions in life. Hopeless bc I struggle to find motivation to keep moving forward sometimes. I’m really hoping that all these feelings are just hormone related.

09/01/2022 I just….don’t like the talking heads. They’re the whitest band ever to me. The album was fine, I was able to get through all of it, but I didn’t enjoy any of it tbh. Definitely won’t be listening again, but it wasn’t something so horrible that I couldn’t get through the album. It’s all just personal preference. — Today was way better than yesterday. Did a lot of work and finished a lot of stuff early so I could just relax this weekend. Heading to San Antonio for a few days, hope to relax and recharge.

09/03/2022 Hmm…I’ve liked Victoria on this album for a long time, but frankly….I wouldn’t listen to this album. I’ve never been a huge Kinks girl, but Village Green Preservation Society is way better imo. However….you can’t tell me that all of 2013/2014 indie rock got their brand from this band. Australia literally sounds like a strokes song. — Studio was roughhhh today, but I ended up slaying and got a shit ton of work done so I could enjoy the long weekend. Heading to San Antonio to see my Lukey :)

09/03/2022 Listened to this one on 09/04 tbhhhh, but!!! I have loved this album since I was in high school, so I was so happy to get it yesterday. This whole album has the feeling of music that would be played at a 70s house party or a party that someone’s parents would have thrown with everyone else’s parents dowsnstairs while they all get drunk off the bar in the house. — Yesterday was a beautiful day. Luke and I went on a date to shiro and i got to shop around. I visited boysville, chica, and crazy. I found an INCREDIBLE hand made quilt at boysville that I’m going to use for my bed now. I really love San Antonio so much

09/04/2022 I’m in my Bob Dylan era, immediately 5 stars. — Last full day in San Antonio :(( today was super chill. I went to the Pearl farmer’s market and got a poem written for me by a guy who was writing poems on the spot from a typewriter. I asked him to write about growing older and outgrowing people and places from the past. Been reflecting a lot on where I am and where I’ve been and am going. As long as I’ve got love, I will continue to go far

09/05/2022 Listened to this one on 09/06, and the truth is that this album is good, but after having In Utero given to me for my first album ever on this website, I have officially declared the latter as the superior nirvana album. — Yesterday was my last day in SA. I’m driving back to Houston atm. I had a beautiful long weekend. Thinking about the future is scary, but also hopeful.

09/06/2022 Haven’t listened to this album in a very long time. Wooden ships reminds me of my freshman year of college bc I was obsessed with it and my high ass thought it was one of the best songs ever. This album is good, but tbh sometimes I can’t stand Graham Nash’s voice, the high parts at least. CSN is stronger when it’s CSNY, but maybe I’m just biased toward Neil young bc I think he fucking rocks. — Today was so so long. Woke up at 7:30 and drove back to Houston, went to class, and then spent a bunch of time in studio finishing my models for tomorrow. Went back to my apt and fell asleep for 11 hours. Otherwise, today was good. I am very in love and am excited and anxious for the future still. Lately, I’ve been taking everything one day at a time though and it’s been working out great.

09/07/2022 Here’s the deal: I’m super picky about music that sounds like this. For the most part, I hate all this weird 80s pop punky shit. The dead kennedys are probably the only exception that I can immediately think of. But yeah, this album was severely lacking in just about everything for me. Felt no compulsion to listen to it all the way through bc the songs all sounded the same to me. — Today was fine. I looked cute today and studio was sooo long. We got assigned our first project, which I’m not nervous about, but am worried about how I’m going to navigate my other classes while doing work for this class. It begins….

09/08/2022 Now THIS is what punk rock is. Probably the best punk album ever. Listening to this album launched me back to 2013/2014 when I would just listen to this record over and over in my room. I had never heard the album before I bought it at Half Price Books in Corpus. Guns of Brixton is probably my favorite song on the entire album. Koka Kola is also probably one of my favorite songs simply for the intro. Elevator goinggggg up!! -- Long ass day today, bruh. Hope to head to the valley tomorrow, but the drive is long ALVVV. Supposed to pick up my puppies, but idk just because I got my flu shot today and feel tired as fuck. UGHHhhh, trying to finish a shit ton of work rn, so I can grind now and relax later. Pray for me fr

09/09/2022 The Smiths feel like a band that only 13/14 year olds like, and I’m so glad that my 13 y/o self never had a devout smiths phase bc holy shit only teenagers and pretentious fucks must be able to listen to Morrissey all the way through and genuinely enjoy it. He sounds like he swallowed a toad and its farts come out through morrissey’s mouth when he sings. What a wanker I know it’s over is a bop though — ‘Twas a good Friday :) studio was really productive today and I can feel my group getting closer and wanting to hang out more. Hopefully we’ll all hang out more in the future. Heading to San Antonio tonight.

09/10/2022 There’s probably nothing inherently wrong w this album, I just truly can’t stand the 1980s sound. Bjork’s vocals were fine, I can see how she found individual success after this, but overall this album just isn’t for someone like me. — Went to the maggiano’s yesterday :P very chill day. Hung out at boysville, ate the best pho of my life, and got some yummy cheesecake

09/11/2022 Got better as I kept listening. Not all of the songs are bangers, but overall it gets the job done. Probably won't listen again, but it wasn't a pain to get through. -- Last day in San Antonio, heading back to Houston tomorrow. It's been a very chill sunday so far.

09/12/2022 Bruh….just finished listening to this in studio and what the fuck. I will never be listening to this album again. It’s so ridiculously depressing. The Kids is just heartwrenching for no good reason. As fucked up as this sounds, this sounds like the music that would be the soundtrack for a movie for the virgin suicides or one of those extremely bleak and hopeless movies. Saw that Bob Ezrin was connected to this and then it all made sense. (The Wall by Pink Floyd says hello). End of the night update: can’t see why anyone would voluntarily listen to this album. This shit is glorified trauma porn, seriously. Idc if I’m being dramatic, this shit put me in a dark and down mood for the rest of the day. — Got back in from SA this morning. Went straight to school. Studio is going slow today. Feeling really frustrated with my pavilion design, but am praying that I will get it all figured out in the coming days.

09/19/2022 Retrospective listen. Tried for several days to get to this one. I would’ve loved the shit out of this if I was alive when it came out. This album rocks hard

09/15/2022 This album was pretty good! I have a special place in my heart for Walk on By (thank you Phillip), and the rest of the album wasn’t bad either. Isaac Hayes doesn’t have my favorite voice, but this wasn’t a pain to get through at all. Just probably wouldn’t feel inclined to listen again. However…the last track was really amazing too. — I am never taking a night class again!!! I am so tired, and it really throws off my schedule. Studio was good today, we had a review and the class and Dawn seemed to like my work. Onto the next day…

09/15/2022 I’ll probably say this hundreds of times throughout this project, but I am not an 80s girl, and late 80s/early 90s dance hall/house music is one of the genres that I hate the MOST, so this album was really tough to get through. So much so that I didn’t even do it. No disrespect or anything, but this album is not for me whatsoever. — Today sucked fat ass, I cried on the phone to Luke about how I hate school and I want to quit 🤣🤣🤣 I’m trying to force myself to stick with it and not give up so easily, but holy fuck is it easy to get discouraged. I fucking hate computers, ever since I was a child I’ve longed for a time other than this one, yet I have to be stuck in this hellhole of a world that just keeps driving itself further and further toward a bottomless pit of despair. I find it really hard to find a will to live sometimes.

09/16/2022 So…..I loved this abmlbun amas as a teenager and Im also drjnk…..awarding on your all is iconic

09/20/2022 Retrospective listen. It’s like….why do I like and hate this album at the same time. The lyrics were so dark and creepy tbh, but I half-like his voice? Feels like the Beatles and Dylan had a fucked up inbred child with this vato….

09/18/2022 Finished listening to this on fi’s birthday :)) tbh….this album is good, but it’s not GREAT. Sheer heart attack and night at the opera are untouchable, so I hope that both of them come up on this list eventually. — Tbh, I am going through a hard time in my life right now. Trying to learn how to sit with pain, not run away from my problems, or look to alcohol to drown out all the noise around me. I’m scared and I feel weak, but I want to be strong and overcome these obstacles so I can look down on them from the hill and never go back. I’m going to try with everything in me to get better, to be better for me and everyone else that I love.

09/19/2022 Happy birthday, ficat!! :)) Don’t even have to finish this album to know I’m giving it four stars. DK are one of my favorite punk bands. Give Me Convenience or Give Me Death was always in my rotation, but this one will definitely be a part of it now too. The versions of California and Cambodia are way better on this album. This kinda music just gives me so much energy and also makes me want to punch a nazi. Love it, love it. — Only 10am atm, got a long week ahead of me. Still have some lingering anxiety from the past few days, but I’m gonna use that as motivation to be well and take care. Will probably write in my journal and update here soon. Today has been rough and really long. I’ll be happy to get home. Gonna crochet or get in the shower to try and feel better. Sit with the pain a bit instead of trying to drown it out.

09/20/2022 Hmm...not great tbh. Their albums really have a tendency to drag. A rush and a push is one of my favorite smiths songs though bc I used to listen to it a lot in high school. -- 6pm, still working on studio, Probably gonna be here for another several hours, but at least it will finally be done. Today I haven't been feeling great, but it was honestly better than yesterday. Still super anxious, still want to cry every 30 minutes, but it's fine. Just hope that I can be strong enough to pull myself out of this damn pit, look back, and know that I've learned to never be this low again.

09/21/2022 Finished this on 09/22. Good album, legalize it and sympathy were probably my favs. I’m super biased toward Bob Marley 😶😶 after watching the documentary on him a while back. — The days have been long and exhausting. I feel like I’m both running away from and desperately trying to pull myself up from the surface to keep from drowning. Just want to be able to wake up and have a normal day where I feel like a person. Just want to be able to look in the mirror and not see every mistake, shortcoming, and bad thing about me in the past.

09/23/2022 Was really disappointed with this one considering that I love Zappa and all the work I’ve heard from him thus far. Parts of this album reminded me The Who sell out, which came out a year earlier. The ugliest part of your body was my favorite song on this album. The others kinda all sounded the same.

09/23/2022 Generic 90s album from what I recall. The Mrs. Robinson cover was great, but it was somebody else’s song. — Good day yesterday. Studio went by really quickly and then I got to see Lukey :)) we went to dinner at MF sushi and that shit was sooo good. Excited for the rest of the weekend

10/03/2022 Retrospective listen. This was better than I thought it was going to be, but still gave me this weird dark feeling regardless. I put off listening to this album bc of the cursed ass album art, but I'm glad I've heard it now. For some reason, I couldn't help but think of Owl City while listening to some of these songs. The musicianship is good, sometimes the vocals were grating though. Giving this album a few points for having a Shrek song in it. I guess the creative team for that movie were big Eels fans bc I Need Some Sleep came out in Shrek 2.

10/03/2022 Playing a lot of catch-up today. This album was a fucking monster. The instruments go so fucking hard, they step on your chest, and don't take their weight off of you for the entirety of the album. I really love the singer's voice. There seems to be some kind of ominous, dark energy surrounding this album though, so I'm not sure if it was good enough to pull me back in for another listen. I'm very particular about my sad and brooding albums They remind me of so many different bands all at once. Muse was the first that came to my mind. I would typically give an album like this 3 stars, but the instrumentation on this album is just so incredible and so tight that I have to bump it up to four stars even though it's unlikely that I would ever listen again.

09/27/2022 Retrospective listen, haven’t been keeping up with these like I should :( This album was fun! Lots of songs I’m familiar with. Didn’t blow me out of the water, but it didn’t suck either. Seems like Jerry lee Lewis was a pretty hip white dude back in the day. I like listening to 50s music sometimes bc I think about how my grandparents were listening to the same songs decades ago :’) it makes me feel closer to them in some way. — Today was alright, but my favorite thing was that I came HOME after studio and got to be in my apartment and feel like a person. Presentation tomorrow on the Stockholm public library and the municipal library in Portugal ugh… just want the weekend to be here already

09/27/2022 Bruh…they were off the shits when they recorded this album. Considering I’ve heard like 3-4 of their other albums, this one is easily the worst. A lot of these songs were a pain to get through, or I had to skip them altogether. It’s like they were all fucked up off whatever they were taking and were like “oh SHIT, we have to pull up to the studio today. Alright y’all, let’s just pull something out our arses and make this deadline” Boo

09/28/2022 Yeah. We’ll just never have a talent like this again in our lifetimes. This genre is called soul for a reason, and god Otis Redding did it the very fucking best. — Today sucked FAT. Thankfully, I’m in bed and better now but holy shit. Stubbed tf out of my toe, got fucked over on a group project, and was just overall done with the day. It’s straight up a fight for me to keep showing up to studio, it’s just truly the worst. I hate everyone in my studio so so much.

09/29/2022 Honestly not the best. Title track is the highlight and it’s the first on the album, so after that you’re kinda just left hanging with mediocre cowboy songs — Fighting to get through the days. Tuesdays and Thursdays are my favorite bc at least I get to go home early

10/02/2022 Restrospective log. I started listening to this on 09/30 and did not finish just bc I saw that the album had an hour long run time and I was like HUH??? Given that, I still surprisingly liked this album just because of how absolutely ridiculous it was. It’s so bloated and over the top ridiculous on all fronts that you have to set aside your ego and just have fun listening to this hair metal insanity. I will never listen to album again, but I won’t lie and say I didn’t at least have a little fun dipping my toe in the water.

10/02/2022 Being real…I didnt actually listen to this album all the way through. I played each song for a few seconds, thought to myself “omg this song is such an iconic bop” and then went on to the next one. I did that mostly bc I’ve fallen behind on logging my albums and it’s making me sad :( Also I skipped through this album like this bc I have heard it before. Just iconic rock and roll, this is the stones at some of their best years. The run from beggars banquet up to goat’s head soup is the stuff of legends. — Long day today, I had a beautiful birthday weekend and am so deeply in love. Went out drinking last night and it went really well. I handled myself perfectly and took care of business like a big girl. Things are going to be okay :)

10/03/2022 Retrospective listen. This one was.....definitely an album! It was a bit of a fight to finish this one. Some of these songs were unbearable for me personally. Others are pretty good actually, but as an album, this just does NOT work for me. I also saw Nick Cave's image on his spotify artist profile and I was like "oh, so THAT'S who that vato is." I feel like I have seen him everywhere! But yeah, did not enjoy listening to him and probably won't listen to him again! He is obviously very musically tapped in to whatever his vision is/was, but it just doesn't work for me and my tastes and preferences

10/03/2022 9am, currently listening. Read some of the reviews and didn’t realize how many people hate rhcp and Anthony kiedis 💀💀💀💀 it’s like…fru, flea, and chad are all goats and Anthony is just kinda bopping around… doesn’t know which way is up…. KDKDJD Love this album so much, reminds me so much of high school. Lots of happy memories associated with this album, so of course every song is a bop for me. People in the reviews seem to have a problem with Anthony's contributions the most, which makes me sad bc the time spent airing grievances about Anthony could instead be spent praising and celebrating all the musicians instead. I digress... -- 5pm, feeling the end of the day slumpies rn, but so far it has actually been a pretty good day! Two of my studio mates brought me cookies for my birthday, and tomorrow I am going to a cool art hangout that Kiyana invited me to. Hopefully it will be fun and a good way to spend my birthday. I miss Lukey a lot a lot, but knowing I get to see him again sometime soon makes me really happy. I never knew love could feel the way it does until I met him.

10/04/2022 Got this album on my birthday!!! Too bad it wasn’t that great!!! Better than I was expecting, but still not something I would listen to on my own time. — My 23rd birthday was beautiful. I woke up and didnt have class in the morning, so I took myself out for lunch at Croissant Brioche. I got a slice of quiche, a cup of vegetable soup, a cappuccino, an eclair, and a fruit tart. It was all so perfect. I went to school for a little bit, and then I went to central market later in the day to pick up a fruit tart for the little art hangout that I was invited to by Kiyana. I got there around 8, and met a bunch of cool, creative people. We took pictures, sang songs, made art, and all shared some fruit tart. Everyone made me feel so welcome :) After that, Kiyana, Mikey, and I went to anvil and they got me two drinks. We didn’t get home until 3am. It was a perfect day :)

10/05/2022 Perfect album. Fills my heart with both warmth and sadness. Impossible to pick a favorite track because they are all incredible. My Old Man is probably my favorite though, simply for the “we don’t need a piece of paper..” bit. I can’t wait to listen to this album for the rest of my life. — Very chill day yesterday. We didn’t have any formal studio time, so I went to a consignment store, got some clothes, and then grabbed a late lunch at croissant brioche, which I think is gonna be my new hangout spot :)

10/06/2022 Damn, this album launched me back to high school, which is fitting bc listening at 23 just wasn't as enjoyable of an experience. Idk what it is about this album that just doesn't do it for me anymore, nothing is inherently wrong with it, it just doesn't bring anything particularly outstanding or special. -- Pretty standard day, not too much going on. Phillip is coming to visit tomorrow, hopefully we will have a full and fun weekend <3

10/07/2022 Not it. Muzak fr — Today sucked so so fat. Something just came over me that made me hate my whole life. I had to leave studio for an hour today just to cry. I really really want to quit, because thinking about having to do this for THREE MORE YEARS is making me want to go crazy. Phillip got in tonight from Memphis!!! I haven’t seen him since before covid :((( We have the whole weekend together now :)

10/11/2022 Retrospective listen, Coltrane is god

10/??/2022 Retrospective listen. This album is so fucking good. Honestly my favorite album that I've heard from Black Sabbath so far. Made me want to listen to even more of their stuff. Idk how they're so fucking tight and solid with their sound. Cornucopia, Changes, and Snowblind were my favorites. I had loved Under the Sun before hearing the entire album, so getting to hear it as the closing track was truly the cherry on top.